Is it ok if I call you mine?

A familiar tune plays at the background (actually I'm just humming it in my mind) while I'm writing this post. "Is it okay if I call you mine..just for a time...and maybe I'll be just fine.."

It happened a month ago. It was just a harmless agreement at first.

No commitment kind of relationship... You just go out on a date and enjoy each other's company.

No big deal...

It was fun having someone around whom you could share your thoughts...your ideas...your dreams...

I like the feeling of spending time with your "special someone". I was so happy then. We were happy then...Until the biggest shock of my life came...

I fell inlove with him... So what if I fell for him? There's nothing wrong with it...

Yeah for a normal type of relationship...it is a good thing to express your true feelings esp. if you're really inlove.

But for us, it was a definite no-no. Neither one of us can fall for each other.. We are trying to avoid...getting hurt... in the process.

I tried to suppress my feelings for this special guy. But the closer we get..the harder it is for me to stop myself from falling for him.

I kept myself busy with work hoping I would eventually forget about how I truly feel for this guy. But it didn't work...


Yesterday came and I decided to let him know how I truly feel. I took the risk. Even if it means losing him in the end.


I decided to put an end to our so called relationship to avoid further emotional damage...

He took it cooly though... I thought he would tell me to atleast reconsider... but he didn't. And it broke my heart...


I wake up this morning feeling a little sore maybe because of all the work I did over the weekend...

And slowly...my tears began to fall...

I felt it again... the feeling of losing someone you treasure the most.

I feel so lonely... I hate to admit it but I miss him so much...

He will always be remembered...

His smile... the way he walks... the way he looks at me ...

the sound of his sweet voice...calling out my name..

If you're reading this right now... I want you to know that you will always be special to me...

Thank you so much for making me feel so loved...and so special...

I treasure every moment I spent with you...

I really wish someday you would finally meet your one true love... If you, do please don't let her go.. fight for your love...

If you need a friend I'll always be here...just like the old times...