Which path to take?

Right now... I'm still confused whether to leave or stay...

If I leave I'm not sure if I'll be able to start a career on IT.

If I don't take the risk... I won't be able to move on... *sigh*

Longing for love...

My previous relationships failed leaving me heartbroken, confused and lonely.

All these years... I've been searching for someone to love me for what I really am. To love me completely...

It makes me wonder why it failed. Was is because all those years I've been struggling to make my relationship work because I fear I might lose him and end up alone and miserable?

"Yes".

I knew all along that it is bound to fail but still my hopes of making it work prevailed. I kept struggling to make it work. I ignored all the signs. Hoping it might just work... with a little push.

And now here I am...alone again.

Why? because I kept searching for love.

My friends told me not to search for love. Just wait for it to come knocking at my door. But I don't have time to wait. The clock is ticking and I'm not getting any younger. Sad but true.

I dread the day that I would see myself living all alone by myself. I need a companion. A lifetime companion. I need someone to share my life with. My love... my sorrows...my happiness...

Others might say oh you're still young you'll find someone to love you someday.

For me the word "someday"...sounds so distant.

"You should learn to be patient...patience is a virtue. God gives the best to those who wait."

Waiting... even if it takes time...

I will teach myself to wait until the right time comes. Maybe this time, I might find the ONE I've been searching all these years.

Im so happy!

grabe! ang saya saya ko talaga. I was able to track down my long time crush. At ngayon friend ko na sya. Hayyy.. kung dati sana kinaibigan ko na sya e di ngayon sana long time friend ko na sya but that's ok ang mahala friend ko na sya ngayon. Ang saya!. I hope this will be a good motivation for me na magpapayat o diba reward ko na sa sarili ko na naging friends kami hehe :p

Senti Mood

Valentines day... single and dateless...but that's ok. I got a rose and a box of chocolates from my friends kaya feel ko na rin ang Valentines.


Ito yung mga panahong ang sarap balikan ng mga good memories. Minsan ang sarap isipin na sana kung pwede mo lang balikan yung time na masaya pa kayo... kasi namimiss mo sya... ng sobra.
Minsan gusto mo sabihin na "alam mo namimiss ko na yung dating samahan natin. yung mga biruan, kwentuhan, at mga tawanan".


Nakakalungkot lang kasi parang ang layo layo na ng ngayon sa noon. Mga bagay na impossible na maulit. Mga bagay na sana kung pwede lang balikan...


If the feeling is gone...

Isa sa mga hard to accept facts of life. Lalo na kapag naging super special nung tao sa buhay mo ... lalo na kapag minahal mo.

You have no choice but to move on with your life.

Oh well... those were the days...

Looking back...

Year 2006 na. Looking back sa year 2005, masasabi kong naging makulay ang taong yun para sa akin. Napakarami na ng mga nangyari. May masaya...may malungkot pero sa kabila ng lahat tuloy pa rin ang buhay para sa akin.

Minsan naiisip ko na sana mabigyan ako ng chance na makita ang future ko. Parang katulad sa pelikulang 13 going 30 or sa back to the future. Pero syempre wala ng thrill kapag nakita ko na diba. For curiousity's sake lang naman kaya gusto ko malaman kung ano meron sa future.

Natatakot kasi ako na baka puro kalungkutan lang ang future ko. Ang totoo nyan natatakot ako mabuhay ng mag isa. Kaya medyo pinaghahandaan ko na ang future ko. Ang sabi ko sa sarili ko kapag wala akong mabubuong pamilya balang araw, mag aalaga na lang ako ng orchids at aso para may kasama ako kahit na papaano and later on kapag established na ang buhay ko saka na lang ako mag aampon ng bata na aalagaan ko syempre yung baby pa lang ang aampunin ko para nman maranasan ko kung paano mag alaga ng baby kahit na di sa akin galing.

Madami rin ako hiniling noon kay Lord. Kadalasan ibinibigay nman nya. Pero minsan naiisip ko tama ba ang mga hiniling ko? Did I make the right decision? Ang alam ko lang when I made those decisions pinag isipan ko rin yun ng mabuti.

Mabuti pa si Gabo nakuha na nya ang gift na gusto nya. Ako kaya kailan? Minsan kapag naaalala ko ang mga nangyari sa akin di ko mapigil ang pagpatak ng mga luha ko. Nawawalan na ako ng pag asa. Ewan ko ba. Ngayon pa lang naiiyak na naman ako.

Alam ko di ako perpektong tao. Di rin naman ako masama. Marunong naman ako magmahal kahit nga walang kapalit ok lang basta napapasaya ko yung taong minamahal ko. Kaso laging palpak eh. Sablay. Siguro nga masyado akong naging serious sa mga past relationships ko. Kaya lang nman ako ganun kasi I want my relationships to last for a lifetime or even forever. Hayy ang buhay nga nman.

Di bale baka ngayong 2006 swertihin ako di man sa lovelife baka sa career. Pagbubutihin ko na lang ang trabaho ko para balang araw maabot ko rin ang ambitions ko.

Ang Pag-ibig Kong Ito

Moonstar 88

Umiiyak ang aking pusong nagdurusa

'yan ay ayaw kong may makakita

Kahit anong sakit ang aking naranasan

'yan ay ayaw kong kanyang malaman

Refrain

Mga araw na nagdaan

Kailan ma'y hindi malilimutan

Kay tamis na araw ng pagmamahalan

Ang akala ko'y walang hangganan

Chorus

Ang pag-ibig kong ito

Luha ang tanging nakamit buhat sa'yo

Kaya't sa maykapal tuwina'y dalangin ko

Sana'y...

[repeat all]

...kapalaran ko ay magbago

[repeat refrain]

Frustrations

We don't accomplish anything in this world alone ... and whatever happens is the result of the whole tapestry of one's life and all the weavings of individual threads from one to another that creates something. - www.wisdomquotes.com

Hayyy... ewan ko ba halos lahat ng presentation sa office sinasalihan ko. Ewan ko ba dun sa iba di nman sumasali. Sabi nga nung isa kong ka-group "napagkaisahan ka na naman ng mga kasama mo". Lagi naman e. Ayaw ko ng pilitin kung ayaw nila. Ang mahalaga may nagawa akong presentation para sa group namin. At least di kami lalabas na walang ginawa.

Nakakalungkot na iilan lang ang gusto magparticipate. Pero ganyan talaga ang buhay.

Sana nga maayos namin maipresent yung number namin tommorow.

Kanina Christmas party namin. After the party diretso agad ng office. Kwentuhan sa mga naging happenings sa party. Then may isang nagstart mang asar sa akin about the "exchange gift incident". Kesyo gusto ko rin nman daw kaya ako di umaalis sa harapan. Kesyo di ko daw naaappreciate ang paghanga daw nung tao. Ibinalik ko sa kanya ang tanong. "Ikaw ba maaappreciate mo yun." "Grabe ka naman" (di pa nga ako tapos mag salita e nagbigay agad ng reaction). "May gf na kya yung tao. E kung malaman yun ng gf nya. "

Ang gusto ko i-point out sa kanya, ayoko lang ng ganun na tinutukso sa may gf na o committed na guy. Ayoko kasing may masabi ang ibang tao. Lalo na kapag nakarating pa yan sa gf nya. Ayoko ng gulo. Ewan ko lang kung nakuha nila yung point ko.

Nakakafrustrate lang talaga.

Quotes to Ponder On

"Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day. "
Letters to a Young Poet

I've been asking myself the same old questions...ending up with same old answers... All these years I've been having a hard time dealing with these answers. Answers that might have saved my failed relationships. I keep on praying that someday I would finally meet the one.

Malapit na ang pasko. Ito na naman ang second time na magcecelebrate ako ng pasko ... a few months after a failed relationship.

Minsan naiisip ko siguro di pa pinapanganak yung guy na meant for me. Yung guy na kayang sakyan ang mood swings ko, yung attitude ko at higit sa lahat yung family ko.

4 years pa bago ko mareach ang deciding age ko to settle down or not. Mahaba pa ang panahon madami pa ang possibleng mangyari.

I'll just hope for the best...

Getting Ready for Christmas

Christmas is fast approaching. I've already finished putting up our Christmas decorations. I'm almost through with my Christmas Shopping list. ^_^

I'm so excited to give all my friends their gifts. I just hope they'll like it. Gift giving is quite costly especially now na marami ako bibigyan. Mas malaki pa ata ang nagatos ko for others than for myself pero masaya naman ako.

Makita ko lang silang nakasmile sa pag abot ko ng gift ko sa kanila ok na yun. Masaya na ako.

Sa kanila ko lang nakukuha ang happiness na hinahanap ko. Yung emptiness na nararamdaman ko nawawala kapag nakita ko na silang nakasmile.

I sure wish maging masaya ang Christmas ko this year.

Heart Breaking News

After hearing the saddest news I've ever received, I felt my heart stopped. I pretended not to be hurt. I kept on smiling but deep inside my heart was torn into pieces. Ouch! (It’s true he has a major crush on HDU kid). I once told myself that I’ll be ok but I’m not… Truth really hurts huh? He even gave her a high rating from a scale of 1-10 he gave her a 9. Ouch!

Well I can’t blame him. HDU kid’s pretty, kind, and a real head turner. I can’t imagine any guy who could resist her charming good looks.

I know this may sound a bit unrealistic for others but honestly I’ve accepted the fact that he would never fall for someone like me (as in NEVER) and that I’ve got nothing in comparison with his crushes. I don’t have CHINKY EYES and most of all I don’t even come close to look like a KOREAN/JAPANESE woman.

I guess this is it. I give up. I’m giving up my fight to win him over.

I lost the game again. The so called game of love. I kept on gambling… over and over… but I never win.

Yes I didn’t give up on love. I’m still very hopeful. But the waiting and the painful heartaches after each gamble makes me wonder will I ever win this game?

They say love is a game of chance. I don’t want to take my chances again and fail.

But when my heart starts beating again for that special someone… someone new… who knows what will happen next?

I’m just hoping that the next time I’ll fall I hope this time he’ll stay… not because he pities me but because he loves me.

As for now I’ll just have to rest for awhile and wait for that special person to sweep me off my feet.

Magmahal Muli

Magmahal muli - Sam and Say (PBB Love Song)

Umaasang magmamahal muli
Ang buong akala ko'y sya na
Kabiguan ang napala

Panghilom ng puso'y hindi madali
Ang malaman mahal mo'y
Walang pag ibig sayo

Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Syang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
Ito'y darating sayo

Aking naranasan....Ohhhhhh
Ang pagluha tulad ng sa ulan
Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Syang magagawa

Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
Ito'y darating sayo
Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Syang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
Ito'y darating, ito'y darating.....
To'y darating sayo

Ohhhhhhh.....ito'y darating sayo

hayyyy...

I'll be Alright without you- Mojofly

I remember the day i gave you a place deep in my heart.
I never thought i’d be such a fool in fall for you
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile
But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright

And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say

A little taste of your breath with sweet caress was all i needed
You’re the first in a thousand freaks that i adored
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile

But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry

I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say

I’d be still here standing where you left me in the cold

Waiting for answers to appear
Is there someone, someone i can put the blame
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say


Heaven knows - Orange and Lemons

[verse 1]
There are times when
I'm lying in my bed hug my pillow and cry
From this stupid gig
And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day,
Almost rubbed down swelling as i keep on
Digging my face in this cold hands of mine
Heaven knows how embittered i am...[chorus]
Coz this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine for all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought i have the strength to set her freeI

did what i did because i love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me.... ahhhhhhhh

[verse 2]
I'm so tired i feel like catching forty winks
Being up all night in this elbow-room
That puts me in a trance
Where hopes and dreams come true
Now my lips are burning
And my eyes are hurting
From this fumes i mixed til i light another cigarette
Just to pass my time oh, heaven knows how embittered i am...

In the name of love - Yasmien Kurdi

I'd still remember
The day we first meet
There was love all around
You and me

You gazed me
Like the morning sun
Shining through my life
But seasons changed
Turn the sun into rain

And love has gone
Now we can't hold on

(chorus)
I did everything in the name of love
I did everything B
ut to fight went on and onI
tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right in the name of love
In the name of love
I can't remember
The last time you said
You will love me forever and ever
If it is true we should make it last
And start over again
We need to change

No more pride and the pain
You'd understand me
As i understand you
(repeat chorus)
(repeat last verse)

I did everything in the name of love
I did everything
But to fight went on and on
I tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right this time

In the name of love
In the name of love

Finding the Right One

Somebody once told me that "finding the right person is very hard and very wrong... it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there... You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you... and don't rush things... 'coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you." You can never be perfect...the person you love can never be perfect...but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God...that's why we have marriage...it's a bond not only between you and your loved one... but also with God. Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right person...it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own...let God do the work...you may call it waiting time...but while you are waiting...pray. Let God guide you always...He knows better. No, He knows best. Love is not what you think it is...Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last.

Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase "you are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received..." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!" Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it? Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like "Forever, till death do us apart, etc." would end up "Never" and "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!".

Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degrees "She/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is "she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer. Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship, You're right, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can bury nor beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

I got this from a bulletin post from one of my friends at friendster. For me there's no such thing as Mr. Right or Ms. Right only ideals.

I used to think that my first serious boyfriend would be my last and that we would end up together. But I was wrong.

That's when I learned that nothing is permanent...nothing lasts forever. Believe me I learned it the hard way.

But it doesn't mean I should give up on love. I still believe that someday I would meet someone really meant for me.

I love you, Goodbye?

Will you still love me
by Chicago


Take me as I am
Put your hand in mine now and forever
Darling here I stand, stand before you now
Deep inside I always knew
It was you, you and me

Two hearts drawn together bound by destiny
It was you and you for me
Every road leads to your door
Every step I take forever more

CHORUS:
Just say you'll love me for the rest of your life
I gotta lot of love and I don't wanna let go
Will you still love me for the rest of my life?
'Cause I can't go on
No, I can't go onI can't go on

If I'm on my own
Take me as I am
Put your heart in mine, stay with me forever
'Cause I am just a man who never understood
I never had a thing to prove
Till there was you

You and me
Then it all came clear so suddenly
How close to you that I wanna be

Repeat Chorus

BRIDGE:
Do you believe a love could run so stong?
Do you believe a love could pass you by?
There was no special one for meI was the lonely one, you see
But then my heart lost all control
Now you're all that I know

Repeat Chorus



Love me for What I am
Carpenters


We fell in love
On the first night that we met
Together We’ve been happy
I have very few regrets

The ordinary problems
Have not been hard to face
But lately little changes
Have been slowly taking place

You’re always finding something
Is wrong in what I do
But you can’t rearrange my life
Because it pleases you

(*) you’ve got lo love me
For what I am
For simply being me
Don’t love me
For what you intend
Or hope that I will be

And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free

If what you want
Isn’t natural for me
I won’t pretend to keep you

What I am I have to be
The picture of perfection
Is only on your mind
For all your expectations
Love can never be designed

We either take each other
For ev’rything we are
Or leave the life
We’ve made behind
And make another start

Repeat (*)

And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go I must be free
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free


It’s been 7 months since that incident happened. Great changes have transpired. I still can’t believe that this would happen. I thought everything was just fine. But now, you seem so distant…cold…

I miss the old times. I miss hanging out with you … I miss the “special” bond we share. I wish there was a way I could bring back the old times but it seems to me that I won’t be able to bring it back anymore.

There are times when I just wanted to talk to you about “us”…but I didn’t have the courage.

Whenever you’re around, I’ll pretend I didn’t see you. Stealing glances whenever you’re not looking.

I wish you could look into these eyes of mine and see how much you meant to me. I wish I could tell you everything I wanted to tell you.

But I guess its better this way. You didn’t have to know what I’ve been going through these past few months. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to see you happy.

It hurts to see you go and fulfill your dreams (though you’re still thinking about it). But I know this is for the best.

I want to apologize for all the pain I’ve caused you. I didn’t mean to hurt you that much. I’m really sorry.

Initial D 4th Stage

Initial D is an anime about an 18 years old boy Takumi Fujiwara, who helps his father Bunta Fujiwara deliver tofu from their home to a hotel near Lake Akina, passing Mt. Akina on the way everyday. Takumi Fujiwara started driving since he was 13 years old. His driving skill is very good, especially in drifting.

Takumi Fujiwara and brothers Keisuke and Ryousuke Takahashi have formed "Project D," a racing team aimed at bringing their driving skills to their full potential outside their prefecture. Using the internet, Project D issues challenges to other racing teams and posts results of their races. Managed by Ryousuke, the team has Takumi engaging in downhill battles with his AE86, while Keisuke challenges opponents uphill. Among their rivals are the Seven-Star Leaf (SSR) and Todo-juku. Joining in the fun is Takumi's father Bunta, who breaks out of retirement with his Subaru Impreza WRX Type R Version V.

And now... ipapalabas na ito sa Pinas sa Channel 7. Though ipinapalabas na rin ito sa Animax. Magkakaron na kaming mga non subscribers ng animax ng chance na mapanood ang Initial D on local tv ^_^. Yipeee!

I can't wait hehe. Sana kung ipapalabas yun nasa bahay ako ^_^

Nung unang beses ko itong mapanood medyo di ko masyadong maintindihan kaya pinanood ko ulit. At dun ko na naappreciate ang whole series (from Stage 1- 4th Stage).

Count down to heartbreak

Friday. I'm making myself busy again with work. Trying to beat the deadline.

Deadlines... paperworks...

There's one deadline I won't be able to meet... A deadline that has no date.

Slowly I'm counting the days... When will he leave? When will my heartaches end?

arrrrghhhhhhhhh!

Pathetic huh?

Others may say ..oh you'll get over it.

Yes just like before I'll get over it. But it will take time.

The more I see him... the harder it gets... to finally be over him.

When will my heart stop beating for this guy?

Even if I overwork myself... exhausting myself with work... even if I don't have to...

I still find myself wondering will he stay? Will he and HDU kid finally be together as lovers?

So what if they become lovers? As if I care...

T_T...

It hurts so much to see him fall for her...

It tears me apart...

T_T

Is it over?

Time flies so fast... Until now I still don't know whether he'll stay or not. But I've got this strong feeling that he might leave the institution.

Its hard to accept the fact that he'll leave us here ... his friends... for him to fulfill his dreams.

But the question is how can he fulfill his life long dream if he keeps on doing favors for other people?

Its a tough decision to make. But he has to decide sooner or later.

It's a pity that we won't be able to continue what we have started before...

I guess were just not really meant to be...

I know for a fact that he's still in love with his long time crush ... Yes he still has feelings for her.

At first it was kinda' hmmm painful but as days pass by I've learn to accept it.

And if ever he decides to leave the institution... it'll be a great loss for me...

I didn't just lose a friend... I also lost the chance to find a good partner.

Maybe God has a plan for me... this is just a phase that I just have to go through...


Why - Avril Lavigne

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like thisLike you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?

I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this wayI need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?

Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel

I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each dayIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this wayI need you, I need you, I need you

Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

End of the line?

Lately, I've been keeping myself busy... just to get my mind off...bry. Thoughts of him leaving the institution just cracks me up.

I never thought this day would come...

I guess this is the end of the line for both of us. We will never find out if he'll ever fall for me.

This is where our story ends...

"Tears well up my eyes as I bid him good bye... and as I turn my back tears began to fall.. I tried to stop it but I couldn't... "

Center Stage

Hehe kanina lang nagpresent kami sa Feast Day ni St. Vincent. Mala Pinoy Big Brother ang style hehe. Sinayaw namin ang Pinoy ako theme song ng PBB. Halos lahat bigay todo sa pagperform. Performance level daw hehe ^_^.

Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO)

GTO is a shounen manga series by Fujisawa Tooru, by Kodansha Comics.

It’s about a man named Onizuka Eikichi (22) who doesn't really have much prospects until one day he decides to be a teacher. The head of an academy is interested in his "methods" and lets him teach (much to the principal's...pain...>: )=

Onizuka isn't much of a teacher as far as school subjects go, but he is a VERY good teacher in "life". Each story in the manga basically deals with him straightening out his students...but with not your typical methods... This is a hilarious, and sometimes even...heartwarming...anime/manga series (you've gotta love Onizuka...no matter how stupid he is ^_^ )

- from http://www.angelfire.com/geek/tetrisnomiko/gto/gto.html

I wasn't able to watch the animated series of GTO (Oh well that's ok ..I was able to watch GTO Live instead ^_^).

GTO Live was introduced to me by a friend. I had fun watching the whole series. And there's one character who really caught my attention he is Yoshito Kikuchi. Kikuchi's character was played by Yosuke Kubozuka. He's very good at computers and he admires Onizuka.

Here's Yosuke's profile http://www.jdorama.com/artiste_561.htm and you can view his pictures at http://www.cuteclub.com. Yosuke is so cute and I really like the way he played Kikuchi's character in GTO. I wish he could visit the Philippines someday ... ^_^

The One Who Got Away

People are always talking about it.

People are always warning you, guiding you, or plain poking their noses into it.The one who got away.

When talking about "unrequited love", he never gets unmentioned. The same way goes when talking about "a love gone wrong", "a love that was never meant to be",
"a love that will never be mine", " a love that was almost mine".

The should-haves,what-haves,could-have-beens...they never run out.How do you definitely know he was the One?

Once it was said that the one you think about at certain times was the one who got away. The one your mind keeps coming back to, thinking what else you could have done to make him stay, and what you really had done to make him leave. He's the one who stirs up a boil in you with just the thought of his smile. He's the one who practically drives you to insanity but the one who makes you stay grounded.

The one who made dreams come true, and the one who failed you. The one who left, or the one you pushed away?However the circumstances placed it...he was the one who got away and you know it.

However you deny it, you know deep in your heart, someone lurks in there and keeps you wondering,how would have love fated? Would it have lasted,would it have ended as soon as it started?You just know.In the deep tresses of your heart, someone lives on.

And though you try to hide to hide it, memories will keep reminding you.