Tuesday, October 25, 2005
hayyyy...
I remember the day i gave you a place deep in my heart.
I never thought i’d be such a fool in fall for you
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile
But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
A little taste of your breath with sweet caress was all i needed
You’re the first in a thousand freaks that i adored
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile
But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’d be still here standing where you left me in the cold
Waiting for answers to appear
Is there someone, someone i can put the blame
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
Heaven knows - Orange and Lemons
[verse 1]
There are times when
I'm lying in my bed hug my pillow and cry
From this stupid gig
And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day,
Almost rubbed down swelling as i keep on
Digging my face in this cold hands of mine
Heaven knows how embittered i am...[chorus]
Coz this angel has flown away from me
Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine for all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought i have the strength to set her freeI
did what i did because i love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me.... ahhhhhhhh
[verse 2]
I'm so tired i feel like catching forty winks
Being up all night in this elbow-room
That puts me in a trance
Where hopes and dreams come true
Now my lips are burning
And my eyes are hurting
From this fumes i mixed til i light another cigarette
Just to pass my time oh, heaven knows how embittered i am...
In the name of love - Yasmien Kurdi
I'd still remember
The day we first meet
There was love all around
You and me
You gazed me
Like the morning sun
Shining through my life
But seasons changed
Turn the sun into rain
And love has gone
Now we can't hold on
(chorus)
I did everything in the name of love
I did everything B
ut to fight went on and onI
tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right in the name of love
In the name of love
I can't remember
The last time you said
You will love me forever and ever
If it is true we should make it last
And start over again
We need to change
No more pride and the pain
You'd understand me
As i understand you
(repeat chorus)
(repeat last verse)
I did everything in the name of love
I did everything
But to fight went on and on
I tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right this time
In the name of love
In the name of love
Friday, October 21, 2005
Finding the Right One
It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
Friday, October 14, 2005
I love you, Goodbye?
by Chicago
Take me as I am
Put your hand in mine now and forever
Darling here I stand, stand before you now
Deep inside I always knew
It was you, you and me
Two hearts drawn together bound by destiny
It was you and you for me
Every road leads to your door
Every step I take forever more
CHORUS:
Just say you'll love me for the rest of your life
I gotta lot of love and I don't wanna let go
Will you still love me for the rest of my life?
'Cause I can't go on
No, I can't go onI can't go on
If I'm on my own
Take me as I am
Put your heart in mine, stay with me forever
'Cause I am just a man who never understood
I never had a thing to prove
Till there was you
You and me
Then it all came clear so suddenly
How close to you that I wanna be
Repeat Chorus
BRIDGE:
Do you believe a love could run so stong?
Do you believe a love could pass you by?
There was no special one for meI was the lonely one, you see
But then my heart lost all control
Now you're all that I know
Repeat Chorus
Love me for What I am
Carpenters
We fell in love
On the first night that we met
Together We’ve been happy
I have very few regrets
The ordinary problems
Have not been hard to face
But lately little changes
Have been slowly taking place
You’re always finding something
Is wrong in what I do
But you can’t rearrange my life
Because it pleases you
(*) you’ve got lo love me
For what I am
For simply being me
Don’t love me
For what you intend
Or hope that I will be
And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free
If what you want
Isn’t natural for me
I won’t pretend to keep you
What I am I have to be
The picture of perfection
Is only on your mind
For all your expectations
Love can never be designed
We either take each other
For ev’rything we are
Or leave the life
We’ve made behind
And make another start
Repeat (*)
And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go I must be free
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free
It’s been 7 months since that incident happened. Great changes have transpired. I still can’t believe that this would happen. I thought everything was just fine. But now, you seem so distant…cold…
I miss the old times. I miss hanging out with you … I miss the “special” bond we share. I wish there was a way I could bring back the old times but it seems to me that I won’t be able to bring it back anymore.
There are times when I just wanted to talk to you about “us”…but I didn’t have the courage.
Whenever you’re around, I’ll pretend I didn’t see you. Stealing glances whenever you’re not looking.
I wish you could look into these eyes of mine and see how much you meant to me. I wish I could tell you everything I wanted to tell you.
But I guess its better this way. You didn’t have to know what I’ve been going through these past few months. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to see you happy.
It hurts to see you go and fulfill your dreams (though you’re still thinking about it). But I know this is for the best.
I want to apologize for all the pain I’ve caused you. I didn’t mean to hurt you that much. I’m really sorry.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Initial D 4th Stage
Initial D is an anime about an 18 years old boy Takumi Fujiwara, who helps his father Bunta Fujiwara deliver tofu from their home to a hotel near Lake Akina, passing Mt. Akina on the way everyday. Takumi Fujiwara started driving since he was 13 years old. His driving skill is very good, especially in drifting.Thursday, October 06, 2005
Count down to heartbreak
Monday, October 03, 2005
Is it over?
It's a pity that we won't be able to continue what we have started before...
I guess were just not really meant to be...
I know for a fact that he's still in love with his long time crush ... Yes he still has feelings for her.
At first it was kinda' hmmm painful but as days pass by I've learn to accept it.
And if ever he decides to leave the institution... it'll be a great loss for me...
I didn't just lose a friend... I also lost the chance to find a good partner.
Maybe God has a plan for me... this is just a phase that I just have to go through...
Why - Avril Lavigne
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like thisLike you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this wayI need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each dayIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this wayI need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Sunday, October 02, 2005
End of the line?
I never thought this day would come...
I guess this is the end of the line for both of us. We will never find out if he'll ever fall for me.
This is where our story ends...
"Tears well up my eyes as I bid him good bye... and as I turn my back tears began to fall.. I tried to stop it but I couldn't... "
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Center Stage
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO)
Saturday, September 17, 2005
The One Who Got Away

People are always talking about it.
People are always warning you, guiding you, or plain poking their noses into it.The one who got away.
When talking about "unrequited love", he never gets unmentioned. The same way goes when talking about "a love gone wrong", "a love that was never meant to be",
"a love that will never be mine", " a love that was almost mine".
The should-haves,what-haves,could-have-beens...they never run out.How do you definitely know he was the One?
Once it was said that the one you think about at certain times was the one who got away. The one your mind keeps coming back to, thinking what else you could have done to make him stay, and what you really had done to make him leave. He's the one who stirs up a boil in you with just the thought of his smile. He's the one who practically drives you to insanity but the one who makes you stay grounded.
The one who made dreams come true, and the one who failed you. The one who left, or the one you pushed away?However the circumstances placed it...he was the one who got away and you know it.
However you deny it, you know deep in your heart, someone lurks in there and keeps you wondering,how would have love fated? Would it have lasted,would it have ended as soon as it started?You just know.In the deep tresses of your heart, someone lives on.
And though you try to hide to hide it, memories will keep reminding you.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Million miles away
The Jets
Tonight it's been a year
We met each other here
Here I am all alone
As thoughts of you go on
Hear me cryin' out to you
You said, "Never, never would I leave
"Here's a tear from me to you
And maybe it will make you hear me
I loved you
You didn't feel the same
Though we're apart
You're in my heart
Give me one more chance
To make it real
In a dream you are here
You smile and hold me near
And in my heart I'll pretend
That you are hear again
Hear me cryin' out to you
You said, "Never, never would I leave"
Here's a tear from me to you
And maybe it will make you hear me
I loved you
You didn't feel the same
Though we're apart
You're in my heart
Give me one more chance
To make it real
Give me one more chance
To make it real
Sometimes I wish that someday everything I have ever dream of would become a reality. But I guess not all dreams come true. Maybe I aimed so high that I miss the target. I never thought that one day I would came across this dilemma. I thought everything was just fine...
Maybe some good things never last... At first I thought it was fine and that I'll be ok. But the more I thought about it the harder it gets. I really wish he'd stay even just for a little while. I still want to see him... even if he doesn't look my way. I wanted to be near him... I want to look into his eyes... "Please stay...please stay even for just awhile".
My heart aches to see him go and fulfill his dreams.
But even so... I still would want to see him happy.
Monday, September 12, 2005
Romance Test
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Love Guru
Private Messages
"Kahit di mo maramdaman ang nararamdaman ko for you ok lang"
Ang drama ba? Pero yun ang nasabi ko sa kanya nun after revealing my true feelings for him. Oo tanggap ko rin na he doesn't feel the same way about me. Naalala ko pa nun gusto ko lumayo sa kanya dahil nahihirapan na ako. Pero he told me na I should stay.
And I stayed... Was it worth it? Yes! it was worth it.
Di ko pa rin alam ang conclusion ng story ko... story namin. Pero for me whatever happens I know lahat ng sacrifices will all be worth it ^_^.
Masaya ako na makita ko sya... makasabay paminsan minsan. Lalo na kapag nginitian nya ako... that's priceless ^_^
Kahit pa sabihin nilang mababa ang pay sa trabaho ko. Ok lang. Masaya pa ako. Darating din ang araw na aalis ako pero for now dito muna ako habang nakikita ko pa sya. Nakakasama. Sayang di yan maintindihan ng parents ko di ko rin pwede ipaintindi sa kanila.
Masaya ako yun lang ang alam ko. Unrealistic ba? Medyo. Pero darating din ang araw na magpupursue din ako ng ibang career and hopefully sa ibang bansa pero sa ngayon dito muna ako.
The Jealousy Test
"You are 33.33% jealous!For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.30. 8072 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that : •You are not a jealous person, but sometimes can be.•Occasionally, you over-react to situations.•Most of the time, you trust the people around.•Jealously will not be a major issue in relationships, but you might want to improve your self-esteem."
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Matters of the Heart
1. To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it , the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best. >>Sabi nga nila Patience is a virtue kaya wait lang tyo mga fellas malay natin nandyan lang sa tabi2 ang para sa atin diba ^_^
2. To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
3.To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart . Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
4. To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry." Not "where are you", but "I'm right here." Not "how could you", but "I understand." Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."
5. To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.
6. To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. >> Naalala ko tuloy noon may nagsabi sa akin na kahit masaktan man tayo ngyn at least mababaw lang madali tyong makakarecover (better to get hurt now the cut shallow) kesa nman sa paasahin tyo tapos wala rin palang mangyayari (...rather than give you false hope...the cut deep) Gets nyo censya na di ko na rin kasi maalala ang exact words na sinabi nya. Pero alam nyo tama sya ^_^
7. To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.
8. To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
9. To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. >> Wala naman mawawala kung sasabihin mo ang totoong nararamdaman mo. Ang mahalaga nasabi mo even if he doesn't feel the same way about you diba ang mahalaga nasabi mo.
10. To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go..... >> Sayang ang panahon...madami dyan baka di lang natin napapansin may nagmamahal na pala sa atin. pero kung sa tingin mo may laban pa tayo walang masama kung ipaglalaban natin ang nararamdaman natin just to win the heart of that very special person ^_^
11. TO ALL MY FRIENDS....... My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
I Believe
There's still hope ^_^
Nung nakapag usap kami ng masinsinan nung last last Saturday ang super saya ko talaga. Parang bumabalik na ulit yung dati. Grabe super kilig talaga ang lowla mo hehehe.
Sana nga magtuluy tuloy na ito. I don't want to lose him. Sa totoo lang masaya ako kapag kasama ko sya.
Minsan feeling ko parang may nafifeel na rin syang "love" for me. Pero mas gusto ko pa rin malaman yun from him.
Kung minsan iba ang tingin nya sa akin. Very warm...affectionate. Pero iniisip ko minsan baka ilusyon ko lang yun. Ewan ko ba. Ganito ata kapag inlove ka.
May ibang nagsasabi sa akin na baka nagfall na sya for me pero di pa nya ma admit sa sarili nya. Pero sa totoo lang magiging napakasaya ko kapag nangyari yun.
Kailan kaya? Sana nga mangyari yun. Hayyy namimiss ko na sya.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Love and Longing

I longed for the past... the memories we have shared together... Parang kailan lang ang saya saya natin noon. Punung puno ng pag asa na someday we will be together...
Nakakamiss na yung dating samahan natin. Namimiss ko na ang smile mo. Ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko sa tuwing kasama kita.
Makita lang kita buo na ang araw ko. Namimiss na kita. Sobra...
Sana pwede pa ibalik yung dati... sana pwede pa..
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Will he fall for me?

I've always dreamed that someday he would fall for someone like me. Though I'm not the type of girl he would normally fall for...
And though there's a very slim chance that he would fall for me. I'm still very hopefully that someday he would feel the same way about me. May konting kirot sa puso ko kapag nakikita ko syang sweet sa ibang tao specially girls just like kanina. "Ouch!" Yan na lang ang sinasabi ko sa sarili ko. " Ilusyunada ka kasi. Wala kang karapatang masaktan."
Wala naman siguro masamang mangarap di ba. Pangarap lang naman.
Naalala ko pa noon halos sumuko na ako... "Ayoko na" sabi ko sa sarili ko. Tama na ang paghihintay... dahil mukha namang walang mangyayari.
Pero everytime na gusto ko ng mag give up at mag move on... yung memories namin together lagi kong naaalala. Namimiss ko na ang dati naming samahan.
I wanted to tell him how much he means to me.
Gusto ko sya tanungin kung may pag asa pa ba kami... pero natatakot ako. Ayokong isipin nya na pinepressure ko sya. Saka natatakot din ako malaman ang isasagot nya.
Hanggang ngayon panay pa rin ang tanong ko sa sarili ko hanggang kailan kaya ako maghihintay... Kakayanin ko kayang makita syang mapunta sa iba?
Oo pero alam ko masasaktan din ako. Pero kakayanin ko yun. Sa una lang naman masakit at mahirap pero alam ko kakayanin ko.
Sabi ko sa kanya noon sabihin nya sa akin kung wala na talaga. Maiintindihan ko nman sya eh.
Oo maiintindihan ko sya pero masasaktan pa rin ako.
Masasaktan...
Luluha...
Malulungkot...
Manghihinayang...

