Heart Breaking News

After hearing the saddest news I've ever received, I felt my heart stopped. I pretended not to be hurt. I kept on smiling but deep inside my heart was torn into pieces. Ouch! (It’s true he has a major crush on HDU kid). I once told myself that I’ll be ok but I’m not… Truth really hurts huh? He even gave her a high rating from a scale of 1-10 he gave her a 9. Ouch!

Well I can’t blame him. HDU kid’s pretty, kind, and a real head turner. I can’t imagine any guy who could resist her charming good looks.

I know this may sound a bit unrealistic for others but honestly I’ve accepted the fact that he would never fall for someone like me (as in NEVER) and that I’ve got nothing in comparison with his crushes. I don’t have CHINKY EYES and most of all I don’t even come close to look like a KOREAN/JAPANESE woman.

I guess this is it. I give up. I’m giving up my fight to win him over.

I lost the game again. The so called game of love. I kept on gambling… over and over… but I never win.

Yes I didn’t give up on love. I’m still very hopeful. But the waiting and the painful heartaches after each gamble makes me wonder will I ever win this game?

They say love is a game of chance. I don’t want to take my chances again and fail.

But when my heart starts beating again for that special someone… someone new… who knows what will happen next?

I’m just hoping that the next time I’ll fall I hope this time he’ll stay… not because he pities me but because he loves me.

As for now I’ll just have to rest for awhile and wait for that special person to sweep me off my feet.