hayyyy...

I'll be Alright without you- Mojofly

I remember the day i gave you a place deep in my heart.
I never thought i’d be such a fool in fall for you
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile
But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright

And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say

A little taste of your breath with sweet caress was all i needed
You’re the first in a thousand freaks that i adored
The way you treat me like a star
The way you tease me with your fingers
All your crazy styles
They all make me smile

But before it bloomed you left too soon
Without telling me why there’s nothing i can do but say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry

I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say

I’d be still here standing where you left me in the cold

Waiting for answers to appear
Is there someone, someone i can put the blame
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say
I’ll be alright without you, i’ll be alright
And if you say you’re sorry
I might not know what to say


Heaven knows - Orange and Lemons

[verse 1]
There are times when
I'm lying in my bed hug my pillow and cry
From this stupid gig
And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day,
Almost rubbed down swelling as i keep on
Digging my face in this cold hands of mine
Heaven knows how embittered i am...[chorus]
Coz this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine for all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought i have the strength to set her freeI

did what i did because i love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me.... ahhhhhhhh

[verse 2]
I'm so tired i feel like catching forty winks
Being up all night in this elbow-room
That puts me in a trance
Where hopes and dreams come true
Now my lips are burning
And my eyes are hurting
From this fumes i mixed til i light another cigarette
Just to pass my time oh, heaven knows how embittered i am...

In the name of love - Yasmien Kurdi

I'd still remember
The day we first meet
There was love all around
You and me

You gazed me
Like the morning sun
Shining through my life
But seasons changed
Turn the sun into rain

And love has gone
Now we can't hold on

(chorus)
I did everything in the name of love
I did everything B
ut to fight went on and onI
tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right in the name of love
In the name of love
I can't remember
The last time you said
You will love me forever and ever
If it is true we should make it last
And start over again
We need to change

No more pride and the pain
You'd understand me
As i understand you
(repeat chorus)
(repeat last verse)

I did everything in the name of love
I did everything
But to fight went on and on
I tried to give in
But you keep on breaking my heart
Can't we just stop
Make it right this time

In the name of love
In the name of love

Finding the Right One

Somebody once told me that "finding the right person is very hard and very wrong... it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there... You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you... and don't rush things... 'coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you." You can never be perfect...the person you love can never be perfect...but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God...that's why we have marriage...it's a bond not only between you and your loved one... but also with God. Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right person...it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own...let God do the work...you may call it waiting time...but while you are waiting...pray. Let God guide you always...He knows better. No, He knows best. Love is not what you think it is...Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last.

Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase "you are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received..." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!" Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it? Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like "Forever, till death do us apart, etc." would end up "Never" and "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!".

Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degrees "She/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is "she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer. Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship, You're right, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can bury nor beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

I got this from a bulletin post from one of my friends at friendster. For me there's no such thing as Mr. Right or Ms. Right only ideals.

I used to think that my first serious boyfriend would be my last and that we would end up together. But I was wrong.

That's when I learned that nothing is permanent...nothing lasts forever. Believe me I learned it the hard way.

But it doesn't mean I should give up on love. I still believe that someday I would meet someone really meant for me.

I love you, Goodbye?

Will you still love me
by Chicago


Take me as I am
Put your hand in mine now and forever
Darling here I stand, stand before you now
Deep inside I always knew
It was you, you and me

Two hearts drawn together bound by destiny
It was you and you for me
Every road leads to your door
Every step I take forever more

CHORUS:
Just say you'll love me for the rest of your life
I gotta lot of love and I don't wanna let go
Will you still love me for the rest of my life?
'Cause I can't go on
No, I can't go onI can't go on

If I'm on my own
Take me as I am
Put your heart in mine, stay with me forever
'Cause I am just a man who never understood
I never had a thing to prove
Till there was you

You and me
Then it all came clear so suddenly
How close to you that I wanna be

Repeat Chorus

BRIDGE:
Do you believe a love could run so stong?
Do you believe a love could pass you by?
There was no special one for meI was the lonely one, you see
But then my heart lost all control
Now you're all that I know

Repeat Chorus



Love me for What I am
Carpenters


We fell in love
On the first night that we met
Together We’ve been happy
I have very few regrets

The ordinary problems
Have not been hard to face
But lately little changes
Have been slowly taking place

You’re always finding something
Is wrong in what I do
But you can’t rearrange my life
Because it pleases you

(*) you’ve got lo love me
For what I am
For simply being me
Don’t love me
For what you intend
Or hope that I will be

And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free

If what you want
Isn’t natural for me
I won’t pretend to keep you

What I am I have to be
The picture of perfection
Is only on your mind
For all your expectations
Love can never be designed

We either take each other
For ev’rything we are
Or leave the life
We’ve made behind
And make another start

Repeat (*)

And if you’re only using me
To feed your fantasy
You’re really not in love
So let me go I must be free
You’re really not in love
So let me go
I must be free


It’s been 7 months since that incident happened. Great changes have transpired. I still can’t believe that this would happen. I thought everything was just fine. But now, you seem so distant…cold…

I miss the old times. I miss hanging out with you … I miss the “special” bond we share. I wish there was a way I could bring back the old times but it seems to me that I won’t be able to bring it back anymore.

There are times when I just wanted to talk to you about “us”…but I didn’t have the courage.

Whenever you’re around, I’ll pretend I didn’t see you. Stealing glances whenever you’re not looking.

I wish you could look into these eyes of mine and see how much you meant to me. I wish I could tell you everything I wanted to tell you.

But I guess its better this way. You didn’t have to know what I’ve been going through these past few months. I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to see you happy.

It hurts to see you go and fulfill your dreams (though you’re still thinking about it). But I know this is for the best.

I want to apologize for all the pain I’ve caused you. I didn’t mean to hurt you that much. I’m really sorry.

Initial D 4th Stage

Initial D is an anime about an 18 years old boy Takumi Fujiwara, who helps his father Bunta Fujiwara deliver tofu from their home to a hotel near Lake Akina, passing Mt. Akina on the way everyday. Takumi Fujiwara started driving since he was 13 years old. His driving skill is very good, especially in drifting.

Takumi Fujiwara and brothers Keisuke and Ryousuke Takahashi have formed "Project D," a racing team aimed at bringing their driving skills to their full potential outside their prefecture. Using the internet, Project D issues challenges to other racing teams and posts results of their races. Managed by Ryousuke, the team has Takumi engaging in downhill battles with his AE86, while Keisuke challenges opponents uphill. Among their rivals are the Seven-Star Leaf (SSR) and Todo-juku. Joining in the fun is Takumi's father Bunta, who breaks out of retirement with his Subaru Impreza WRX Type R Version V.

And now... ipapalabas na ito sa Pinas sa Channel 7. Though ipinapalabas na rin ito sa Animax. Magkakaron na kaming mga non subscribers ng animax ng chance na mapanood ang Initial D on local tv ^_^. Yipeee!

I can't wait hehe. Sana kung ipapalabas yun nasa bahay ako ^_^

Nung unang beses ko itong mapanood medyo di ko masyadong maintindihan kaya pinanood ko ulit. At dun ko na naappreciate ang whole series (from Stage 1- 4th Stage).

Count down to heartbreak

Friday. I'm making myself busy again with work. Trying to beat the deadline.

Deadlines... paperworks...

There's one deadline I won't be able to meet... A deadline that has no date.

Slowly I'm counting the days... When will he leave? When will my heartaches end?

arrrrghhhhhhhhh!

Pathetic huh?

Others may say ..oh you'll get over it.

Yes just like before I'll get over it. But it will take time.

The more I see him... the harder it gets... to finally be over him.

When will my heart stop beating for this guy?

Even if I overwork myself... exhausting myself with work... even if I don't have to...

I still find myself wondering will he stay? Will he and HDU kid finally be together as lovers?

So what if they become lovers? As if I care...

T_T...

It hurts so much to see him fall for her...

It tears me apart...

T_T

Is it over?

Time flies so fast... Until now I still don't know whether he'll stay or not. But I've got this strong feeling that he might leave the institution.

Its hard to accept the fact that he'll leave us here ... his friends... for him to fulfill his dreams.

But the question is how can he fulfill his life long dream if he keeps on doing favors for other people?

Its a tough decision to make. But he has to decide sooner or later.

It's a pity that we won't be able to continue what we have started before...

I guess were just not really meant to be...

I know for a fact that he's still in love with his long time crush ... Yes he still has feelings for her.

At first it was kinda' hmmm painful but as days pass by I've learn to accept it.

And if ever he decides to leave the institution... it'll be a great loss for me...

I didn't just lose a friend... I also lost the chance to find a good partner.

Maybe God has a plan for me... this is just a phase that I just have to go through...


Why - Avril Lavigne

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like thisLike you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?

I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this wayI need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?

Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel

I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're faraway
I could feel I could feel you baby, whyIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each dayIt's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this wayI need you, I need you, I need you

Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

End of the line?

Lately, I've been keeping myself busy... just to get my mind off...bry. Thoughts of him leaving the institution just cracks me up.

I never thought this day would come...

I guess this is the end of the line for both of us. We will never find out if he'll ever fall for me.

This is where our story ends...

"Tears well up my eyes as I bid him good bye... and as I turn my back tears began to fall.. I tried to stop it but I couldn't... "